Been a long time...

...since I posted at this blog. I guess that's largely due to the fact that I'm not a PTD anymore. Faith will be 20 months old tomorrow.

Things are going well, for the most part. We visit Faith and the Smith's regularly, and since Sarah is in alternative ed. she spends many days over at their house helping out with the kids. Susan tells us that it is a blessing to have Sarah there, and it's helpful to hear that...because sometimes it just feels...weird. Not all the time, but sometimes.

Today was one of those days. Faith had surgery this morning to correct a submucousal cleft of the soft palate. More about the specifics of that here: http://www.cleftline.org/publications/submucous

Sarah and I went to the hospital early this morning and stayed while Faith was in surgery. We were talking about leaving to take Sarah over to be with the other girls when the doctor walked out. Everything went fine, but only Jeff and Susan would be allowed in to see her for a bit. So we went ahead and left.

On the drive, Sarah was upset and we talked about how sometimes she doesn't know what her boundaries are with Faith. She feels love for all three girls and doesn't worry about "boundaries" with the other girls, but it's different with Faith. Sarah goes out of her way to make sure that she tries to show each equivalent amounts of attention, but feels sometimes like she's "intruding". This morning was one of those times.

We talked about how she didn't really feel like she was welcome at the hospital, and I knew what she meant. I wrote it off as Jeff and Susan being, tired, distracted, and worried, but it isn't as easy for Sarah. I had to tell myself that "it's not about me", and again it's not easy for Sarah to do that.

Gotta run for now....more later....